Random causes of depression.

It's so depressing when you want to write but your hands wont move; it makes all those ideas jammed up in your mind, and soon enough you're going to forget them all.


It is depressing to wake up seeing darkness and nobody to greet you a "good morning", as you stand up.


How depressing is it to see the dark skies and the falling rain as you open the window of your room when you are all alone? -- It is so depressing to find nobody to comfort you in the middle of that long, cold day.


It is so depressing to have your mind cluttered with a vast number of information yet along that knowledge you have you still cannot find what you are seeking of for maybe, just maybe, you are not destined to know that thing.


It’s too depressing to hear people say that if a thing is not meant for you, you won’t have it when you know that people are the ones who make their own destiny.


How depressing could it be to find the reason for your existence but you can not even have your shadow touch it?

It is depressing when you have yourself confused over something which should not be confusing you at all.

Depressing it is also, to find yourself brooding over a problem that you can not solve for the solution it requires is just unimaginable.

But isn’t it more depressing to find yourself problematic with a problem you cannot identify?


The things that are really depressing are when you want to cry but your tears won’t fall… and when you want to speak of something but you just can’t tell of it for you having the idea that a bad thing might happen if you let that out of your mind.


My… how depressing is it to see all of these depressing stuffs? It’s so depressing I want to lock myself up in my room for a whole year but finding it impossible because that can’t just be done.

LU! Live 09: My Sem Starter

LU! Live is an annual event held at World Trade Center Manila and is hosted by LU! Company. It's an event where players of all the game franchises owned by LU! get together, manage booths, and sell merchandises such as pins, shirts, tumblers, jackets, dolls, charms, keychains, game-based headgears, lanyards, and many more. Film Fest, Photography contests, raffles, and in-game tourneys are also held.

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[ right - Me; left - a guildmate ]
This is a photo of a friend and I, wearing our guild jackets that we just got yesterday. Thanks to Ate Camz for taking time to manage those jackets!



[ in the photo: Coerce Guild Jacket, Coerce Pin, Imbalance Pin, RO Shirt, High Wizard Pin, and RO Chibi-designed lanyard (from Revamped_Blasphemy Guild of Valhalla), LU! Live pass, Gamer Sim, and RO Load P50 ]
These are the few stuffs I got from the event. Supposedly, a guild tag is included here but unfortunately, I wasn't able to get mine yesterday due to some problems encountered by the persons who offered us that product. Boohoo. Thanks to Elvin_Neal aka Dexter64 http://dexter64-jinchuurikinotes.blogspot.com/ for the lanyard. And kudos to the persons responsible for the super cute chibi art.



[ in the photo: World Famous McDonald's French Fries LOL ]
Just before riding the bus heading to my place, my friend and I ate at McDonald's. I can't seem to reject his offer of treating me there. Thanks to that friend. You know who you are and what you did. Thanks a bunch. Really. D<

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Thanks to my parents who allowed me to travel alone to Manila. To Marlon who waited for me at our meeting place so I won't get lost. Jehz for accompanying me, and for pointing out good-looking guys LOL. Master Dex, for the lanyard. Coerce guildmates and friends, especially those who got busy with the booth and stuffs. To the new people I met yesterday. And to the random American Girl who introduced herself to me as a "random person that I don't know". I had fun at LU! Live even though my legs almost killed me.

Until next year (if ever there's still another LU! event)
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On the other hand, sem. break ends now and my second semester for my first year in college starts tomorrow. I will have my first class tomorrow at 1:00PM - 4:00PM (Physics Laboratory). Urk. So I'mma bid goodbye to this lame-O blog of mine for a while. I'll be back on Friday. Do pray for me, ne? >D<

My lonesome 17th birthday celebration

Last November 3, I celebrated my birthday alone... Well I was alone almost the whole day. Otosan and Okasan left early for grandpa's funeral while Oniichan left me at around noon to meet with his girlfriend. Boohoo. So I was all alone with the computer, television, DVD player, my cellphone, and the microphone.

Oniichan went home with his girlfriend and brought with them baked macaroni. Of course I cannot let that cheesy baked mac uneaten so I ate it. Lol. Then I realized that the weather was too hot so I asked Oniichan to buy us ice cream. *Looks at teh delicious ice cream's picture above*

After eating, I was again left home alone. While I was using the computer, it suddenly went off. And I was like "Uh-oh, I can smell something burning." :D Guess what burned? It was the power supply's fuse! Since then I really got doomed. I sat on our sofa for about 15minutes and sent text messages to my friends.

*thinks*
*thinks*
*thinks*

I was thinking like I was sitting on the thinking chair. LOL. And then I saw the DVD player and the microphone.

"Finally! I have something to do." I said to myself. So I set everything up. Turned on the television, plugged the microphone, placed the CD inside the player, and picked songs that I felt like singing. Later, Through the years, When I Dream, were some of the songs that I sang. Well I didn't really sing my heart out; I was not really in the mood for singing that time.

Hours passed...

Finally, Otosan and Okasan got back from grandpa's burial. They bought me the socks that I asked them to buy (I was planning to wear those on Saturday at LU Live). I'm planning to attend the convention in a school girl outfit. LOL.

They (Otosan and Okasan) left me alone again for their weekly Bible Study. I was alone again, watching crappy teleseries because I had no other thing to do. Boohoo.

That's my birthday celebration for this year. I won't let my next birthday be like this! Keeeeeeeeeh!